dreams of Olivia Wilde

i don't think megan fox is hot. i don't at all. she's pretty and has a nice body but she is not the sex pot of goodness everyone says she is, to me at least. am i missing something? Olivia wilde, yep she is hot.

my hay-fever is driving me crazy. just crazy. took one kind that was supposed to last 24 hour but didn't, the next one makes me very sleepy, i have to take it serval times a day and i feel slightly off too- my skin is itchy now too, not just my ears eyes, and nose.

i am meant to be looking for work but so far i have been downloading music, watching a lot of food tv, laying in the sun, pretending that a job will magically land in my lap and running. the motivation to look is low and i know, i know i need to get off my ass and do something about it. i have spent the last two weeks getting my sister ready to send back space camp, moving, unpacking, packing and dreaming.

this weeks- i get down to bussiness and my shit together. i hope.

leaving on a jet plane

leaving nz today after five and half years. thats along time. i had a life here without swimming for the first time in my life. i completed school twice, even if doesn't count in the US.

i lived on both islands and have met people from around the world. hiked in the mountains and laid on the beaches. went to Australia and Rarotonga, places i had only dreamed on going before.

i have made life long friends and have so many wonderful memories. it was hard at the start, no doubt. but sticking through it was well worth it. i feel incredibility to lucky to live in nz. it was given me a new outlook on what i want from my life, i have tested my limits of comfort and what i believed was possible and come out the other side not too much worse from the wear.

i got to reinvent my self by living here for the better i feel, i shed all the insecurities that i had carried with me for so long. all i want to say is thank you. for everything

cry me a river

between the rain, that will not stop and i wanting to cry every second of every day, i bet i could create a river and call it 'i don't know why i am moving and I'm sad and i can't be a teacher in Oregon because they are stupid'.

the the number of days get smaller, i am become increasingly more worried and nervous. there is a lot of unknown that I'm headed which does not fill me will joy but angst. I'm going to have to put on my America skin, which is too small and requires me to be mean and distrusting of people. i will have to drive on the other side of the road again and i have forgotten how to get most things done in America.

i will miss my friends. a lot. they have been my saving grace the past few months and have seen me through some times over the past few years. they are simply the best. THE BEST.

color/colour my world

two way to spell color, one way to spell black.
the great people of christchurch love to wear black. a lot of it, all the time, any time of year. don't get me wrong it like black, i own black clothes and wear them. but not every day, my whole outfit and in the winter. i need some color to brighten up the winter days.

crushes: boy and girls

salt and vinegar

Salt and vinegar chip are the best. Salt is always good, pretty much on anything and the vinegar adds a bitterness/sharpness that I find addicting. And when you eat so many of them you mouth feels slightly burned from the salt and vinegar, you know its time to stop. But you can't because they are so bloody good. So you keep eating until your mouth feels like it will never recover from the abuse and you say to your self ' i will never eat a whole bag of chips again' which it similar to the 'i will never drink again' mantra muttered so many times after at long night.

There are however a few things I want to try and hopefully I will enjoy as much as salt and vinegar.

RTR- Rent the Runway Wear designer clothes without paying designer prices yay! Dresses sent right to your door, if only I had some place to wear high end fashion, as Forest Grove is not a major metropolitan city and the local bar is called the Crappy.

TOMS Shoes Get a pair of super cool shoes and a kid in need gets a pair of shoes too. How great is that!

The Umami Burger Sweet, salty, bitter, sour and the fifth taste umami. I need to know what the Umami taste is. It could be mind blowing.

heigl outta here

I dislike Katherine Heigl with a passion. I don't know what it is about exactly that I can not stand. Maybe it's the way she seems to always have a slight smirk on her face like of course I'm an adored actress, it's my right. And I just want to beat her down, no, no it's not Katherine. You got lucky and you should be grateful for it and if you dislike so much how women are portrayed in romantic comedy's then don't make them -simple. But don't go bad mouthing those who do or the people who are nice enough to put you in their movies.

I guess she is just doing it for the cash, but a real actress would never sell herself short just for money would they Katherine? It kinda makes you a prostitute aye. A romantic comedy movie making prostitute.

A few people who don't like Ms. Heigl either
I hate Katerine Heigl ..again.
Why Is Katherine Heigl So Annoying?