cry me a river

between the rain, that will not stop and i wanting to cry every second of every day, i bet i could create a river and call it 'i don't know why i am moving and I'm sad and i can't be a teacher in Oregon because they are stupid'.

the the number of days get smaller, i am become increasingly more worried and nervous. there is a lot of unknown that I'm headed which does not fill me will joy but angst. I'm going to have to put on my America skin, which is too small and requires me to be mean and distrusting of people. i will have to drive on the other side of the road again and i have forgotten how to get most things done in America.

i will miss my friends. a lot. they have been my saving grace the past few months and have seen me through some times over the past few years. they are simply the best. THE BEST.

color/colour my world

two way to spell color, one way to spell black.
the great people of christchurch love to wear black. a lot of it, all the time, any time of year. don't get me wrong it like black, i own black clothes and wear them. but not every day, my whole outfit and in the winter. i need some color to brighten up the winter days.

crushes: boy and girls

salt and vinegar

Salt and vinegar chip are the best. Salt is always good, pretty much on anything and the vinegar adds a bitterness/sharpness that I find addicting. And when you eat so many of them you mouth feels slightly burned from the salt and vinegar, you know its time to stop. But you can't because they are so bloody good. So you keep eating until your mouth feels like it will never recover from the abuse and you say to your self ' i will never eat a whole bag of chips again' which it similar to the 'i will never drink again' mantra muttered so many times after at long night.

There are however a few things I want to try and hopefully I will enjoy as much as salt and vinegar.

RTR- Rent the Runway Wear designer clothes without paying designer prices yay! Dresses sent right to your door, if only I had some place to wear high end fashion, as Forest Grove is not a major metropolitan city and the local bar is called the Crappy.

TOMS Shoes Get a pair of super cool shoes and a kid in need gets a pair of shoes too. How great is that!

The Umami Burger Sweet, salty, bitter, sour and the fifth taste umami. I need to know what the Umami taste is. It could be mind blowing.

heigl outta here

I dislike Katherine Heigl with a passion. I don't know what it is about exactly that I can not stand. Maybe it's the way she seems to always have a slight smirk on her face like of course I'm an adored actress, it's my right. And I just want to beat her down, no, no it's not Katherine. You got lucky and you should be grateful for it and if you dislike so much how women are portrayed in romantic comedy's then don't make them -simple. But don't go bad mouthing those who do or the people who are nice enough to put you in their movies.

I guess she is just doing it for the cash, but a real actress would never sell herself short just for money would they Katherine? It kinda makes you a prostitute aye. A romantic comedy movie making prostitute.

A few people who don't like Ms. Heigl either
I hate Katerine Heigl ..again.
Why Is Katherine Heigl So Annoying?

will shop for food

With a little under a month before I move the reality of it is starting to become clear. I don not have employment in the great state of Oregon. The only job prospect didn't actually want to pay me a wage I could live on. And getting my licence to teach has been a challenge/frustrating experience, with lots of emails being sent but not alot of actual useful information received for me. I'm still hopefully that something will work out.

I really don't want to be a waitress again, as it is so soul destroying and horrible. Personal shopping is my new obsession, now to convince an unsuspecting individual that I should be the one to pick out clothes for them and they will like them, wear them and recommend me to other people. Or maybe a personal assistant, I could do all sorts of things.. pick up dry cleaning, walk your dog, shop for you...

I would really love to be a teacher of course. One day I will get there.

shine on