man, those are some sexy arms

I've hit the two month moving blues a few days early. it happened when i moved so long ago. everything is new and great and your are so excited by all the new happy things, you are so happy!!
then reality hit, this is your life that you will live. you are not on vacation, you don't get to go back to your life, which is now your old life, and go back to the things that a familiar and comforting.
i didn't think moving back to or would be a huge change or shock, o how wrong was i. culture shock for sure.
i grew up here, but really become an adult over there. tried things, made mistakes, learned, met amazing people, drank huge amounts of alcohol.
yes everyone is very nice and they actually will get in touch if you give them your number, even if they can't remember who you are...but hey he turns out to have really sexy arms..
i miss the comforts, picking up the phone to talk to my family and friends,the dog coming in every morning to wake me up.
i don't know what will come for me in the next few months, there are a few exciting things starting- looking forward to seeing where they go. two months blues might be here today but not for long.

ugly people need not apply

worst. sleep. ever. worry about every choice I've made over the past 2 months. more recently who i have been some time with. did i do something wrong, has it gone belly up before it even started? this happens to me alot so i wouldn't be surprised, but the thing is it still hurts- alot, like its not fun.

you feel horrible, like will this ever work out for me, will i ever get it right, how do i feel comfortable in this situation, how do i know that he will get back to me? and you don't it's a chance you have to make, and for the first few times when your young- you bounce back easily for this, as you get older- it not pretty.

i haven't been in a relationship for 4 years and one that i was enjoy full heartedly for 7 years. 7 years...whoa ...i don't know maybe I'm too picky and discounting some because they aren't hot enough, be cause my sister told me that's the only kind of guy i go for. which hurt because i like to believe that I'm not that shallow of a person, but apparently i am.

where was i going, not sure. i don't know when i should be worried or not. but i should not be and if it meant to be it will work out, he will get back to me, my nerves will be a rest, for now..