no i will not kill bambi

i am a poor hunter. not hunting cute animals but jobs. i get to distracted doing other things i actually like doing- like watching the hills to take the time to look for work. it does not help that the job market is poo and i feel like everything i apply for im over qualified.

not that i am qualify to do much and BS and teaching degree, that is not recognized, will not get you far. like i can be a waitress or drive a bus. my roommate suggest driving a bus, i can hardly remember which side of the road i meant to be driving on, can't parallel park and danger to all other people driving.

so bus driving is out. for now. unless i get really desperate. then watch out.

why i need a boat

i need a boat to be popular and to find a potential husband.

my family boats growing up and it was the best. the greatest thing about summer was/is going to the lake and spending the whole day on boat. intertubbing, water skiing, wake boarding and playing. we had bbq on the lake unitl the bbq went over board. i love being at the lake on a boat. trips down to lake shatsa were also a highlight of summer/boating time. a week of skiing, amazing water and fun.

getting back to why i need a boat, to be popular. i have just come back after living overseas and don't know too many people in ol' fg. thus i need a boat to make friends.

to find a potential husband. by making myself popular this will give me exposure to a wide demographic of people including single males between the ages of 23-30 years. for this group myself and roommate could possibly find a husband- which my dad feels i am incapable of doing as he asks family friends to set me up. anyway meeting husbands. yes

and that is why i need a boat, please dad :)

dreams of Olivia Wilde

i don't think megan fox is hot. i don't at all. she's pretty and has a nice body but she is not the sex pot of goodness everyone says she is, to me at least. am i missing something? Olivia wilde, yep she is hot.

my hay-fever is driving me crazy. just crazy. took one kind that was supposed to last 24 hour but didn't, the next one makes me very sleepy, i have to take it serval times a day and i feel slightly off too- my skin is itchy now too, not just my ears eyes, and nose.

i am meant to be looking for work but so far i have been downloading music, watching a lot of food tv, laying in the sun, pretending that a job will magically land in my lap and running. the motivation to look is low and i know, i know i need to get off my ass and do something about it. i have spent the last two weeks getting my sister ready to send back space camp, moving, unpacking, packing and dreaming.

this weeks- i get down to bussiness and my shit together. i hope.

leaving on a jet plane

leaving nz today after five and half years. thats along time. i had a life here without swimming for the first time in my life. i completed school twice, even if doesn't count in the US.

i lived on both islands and have met people from around the world. hiked in the mountains and laid on the beaches. went to Australia and Rarotonga, places i had only dreamed on going before.

i have made life long friends and have so many wonderful memories. it was hard at the start, no doubt. but sticking through it was well worth it. i feel incredibility to lucky to live in nz. it was given me a new outlook on what i want from my life, i have tested my limits of comfort and what i believed was possible and come out the other side not too much worse from the wear.

i got to reinvent my self by living here for the better i feel, i shed all the insecurities that i had carried with me for so long. all i want to say is thank you. for everything