cry me a river

between the rain, that will not stop and i wanting to cry every second of every day, i bet i could create a river and call it 'i don't know why i am moving and I'm sad and i can't be a teacher in Oregon because they are stupid'.

the the number of days get smaller, i am become increasingly more worried and nervous. there is a lot of unknown that I'm headed which does not fill me will joy but angst. I'm going to have to put on my America skin, which is too small and requires me to be mean and distrusting of people. i will have to drive on the other side of the road again and i have forgotten how to get most things done in America.

i will miss my friends. a lot. they have been my saving grace the past few months and have seen me through some times over the past few years. they are simply the best. THE BEST.

color/colour my world

two way to spell color, one way to spell black.
the great people of christchurch love to wear black. a lot of it, all the time, any time of year. don't get me wrong it like black, i own black clothes and wear them. but not every day, my whole outfit and in the winter. i need some color to brighten up the winter days.

crushes: boy and girls

salt and vinegar

Salt and vinegar chip are the best. Salt is always good, pretty much on anything and the vinegar adds a bitterness/sharpness that I find addicting. And when you eat so many of them you mouth feels slightly burned from the salt and vinegar, you know its time to stop. But you can't because they are so bloody good. So you keep eating until your mouth feels like it will never recover from the abuse and you say to your self ' i will never eat a whole bag of chips again' which it similar to the 'i will never drink again' mantra muttered so many times after at long night.

There are however a few things I want to try and hopefully I will enjoy as much as salt and vinegar.

RTR- Rent the Runway Wear designer clothes without paying designer prices yay! Dresses sent right to your door, if only I had some place to wear high end fashion, as Forest Grove is not a major metropolitan city and the local bar is called the Crappy.

TOMS Shoes Get a pair of super cool shoes and a kid in need gets a pair of shoes too. How great is that!

The Umami Burger Sweet, salty, bitter, sour and the fifth taste umami. I need to know what the Umami taste is. It could be mind blowing.

heigl outta here

I dislike Katherine Heigl with a passion. I don't know what it is about exactly that I can not stand. Maybe it's the way she seems to always have a slight smirk on her face like of course I'm an adored actress, it's my right. And I just want to beat her down, no, no it's not Katherine. You got lucky and you should be grateful for it and if you dislike so much how women are portrayed in romantic comedy's then don't make them -simple. But don't go bad mouthing those who do or the people who are nice enough to put you in their movies.

I guess she is just doing it for the cash, but a real actress would never sell herself short just for money would they Katherine? It kinda makes you a prostitute aye. A romantic comedy movie making prostitute.

A few people who don't like Ms. Heigl either
I hate Katerine Heigl ..again.
Why Is Katherine Heigl So Annoying?

will shop for food

With a little under a month before I move the reality of it is starting to become clear. I don not have employment in the great state of Oregon. The only job prospect didn't actually want to pay me a wage I could live on. And getting my licence to teach has been a challenge/frustrating experience, with lots of emails being sent but not alot of actual useful information received for me. I'm still hopefully that something will work out.

I really don't want to be a waitress again, as it is so soul destroying and horrible. Personal shopping is my new obsession, now to convince an unsuspecting individual that I should be the one to pick out clothes for them and they will like them, wear them and recommend me to other people. Or maybe a personal assistant, I could do all sorts of things.. pick up dry cleaning, walk your dog, shop for you...

I would really love to be a teacher of course. One day I will get there.

shine on

half of sixteen is not three

teacher " so what is half of sixteen?"
student "three!"
teacher "um lets try that one again"

gap

sway

To make a long story short, I have lost/had my wallet stolen yesterday/last night. This cause much discomfort for my mental health and caused me to miss the 15k I was meant to be running this morning. Sorry Carla.

After cancelling my cards feeling sorry for myself and going a run, I decided that I need cookies to make my stinky Sunday better.

Never one to shy away from trying something new, I decided to give vegan baking a go. I did a horrible experience with some vegan mac n cheese not long ago, nutritional yeast to gross. However I found the most AMAZING vegan cookie blog. The Vegan Cookie Connoisseur. The recipes didn’t looking scary and I had all the ingredients in the cupboard.

The seemed Double Chocolate Chip Cookies like the perfect choice.

And it was a good choice so chocolaty, not too sweet and a bit cake like, I would defiantly make these again. After such success with these cookies I am looking forward to trying out more recipes from Kelly.


Another thing that cheered me up was the discovery of Shoes of Prey. This is site where you can design shoes. Yes that is correct design shoes; they are made and sent to you. Um I think I have found heaven. There are six different basic styles to choose from, with options on heel size and shape, straps and texture and color of shoe. Yay! This entertained me for ages. They can get pricey, a pair of high heels made came to $355. So maybe not this year, but maybe someday.

And to who ever took my wallet you own my friend an apology.